♥Sinyi, Your's Truly

“You know my name, not my story.”

Heyy, you hear what my heart was trying to say? It says i love you.

Sunday, July 31, 2011 || 12:01 AM

Hello earthlings!

Time check, 11:22pm. (:

Ain't JesseMcCartney CUTE?! <: But no worries fatfat, you're cuter. (: I didn't miss 11:11 today! YAY! Teehee~ (: Today whole day rot at home, morning wake up jiu recieve fatfat's text oreadi. ^^ Teehee~ He today damn good lurhh, go out~ Yet i'm stuck at home~ ): Yawns..

Thn keep text him halfway fall asleep, thn when he reply me, jiu wake up and reply him. Laughs, it's like we're back to 141210 again. (: Me like! I wish we'll be like this FOREVER. (: I love it when you text me 'nitenite sweetdreams' before you go to sleep. And auto text me in the morning. (: But am i the only girl you're texting? (: Who knows~ :b

Lalala~ Today keep texting fatfat. (: Me like lurhh~ (: Teehee~ I'm so bored today. No go out, no nothing! ): Sad die me! Thn today still stomach pain. ): Leg still pain. AHHHHHHH! I'm gonna die oreadi. ): Let's hope tomorrow will have plan ohkayy? I'm so bored, and having stomach cramp is no joke. ): I don't like stomach cramp, i only like fatfat. ):

Wahhh~ I can't even get a sec2 electricity equation correct. ): This sucks maximum. ): Whatever. ._. Fat still dare laugh when i tell him i can't complete the equation. ._. You see how bad is he?! Tht asshole. ):

Blahhblahhblahh, gonna go text my fatfat oreadi! (: I'm starting to yawns. Maybe gonna go sleep soon. (:

Fatfat, i MISS you. ): And you're so fat<3 Imagine you rubbing your belly like a uncle. <3 So cute. (:

Goodnights.
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

SembawangParkBBQ photos

Saturday, July 30, 2011 || 4:48 AM

Say you miss me, say you still love me.

|| 4:41 AM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 4:05am.

Was actually going to sleep, but suddenly think dao i'm waiting for carol's pictures. Yawns. Jiu wait awhile more. (: Since i can't really sleep oso. (:

Sometimes, i just wish you'll text/call me, and say you miss me alot.. Sighs.. Thinking too much.. :/ Blahhblahhblahh. I miss you, :/ Sometimes, when we ran out of things to say, i just wish i could say i miss you.. But i know if i did tht, it'll be awkward for us both.. And you prolly won't reply anymore.. I should just stop talking about it..

I never fail to try pick up all the little pieces of my broken heart when you left. Telling myself i'll be ohkayy, asking myself not to cry, telling myself you'll be back. Telling myself tht the mended heart will be as good as new. I never regret loving you, never regret making you a priority, never regret meeting you, never regret staying by your side, never regret waiting..

Sighs.. I shall go sleep nows. Ohhya, the photos. ._. Next post thn.

I miss you badly. ):

Goodnights.
Withloves,
Sinyi.

Heyy, i love you.

|| 2:07 AM

Hello earthlings!

Time check, 12:51am.

Yawns, just reach home not long ago. Today had BBQ! Teehee~ So nice. <: I'm waiting for carol to upload the pics~ Thn i upload on blog. (: Teehee~ (:

Ohkayy, shall start with i went to cut my fringe today~ Thn i cab down amk hub, when i reach, NOBODY REACH! ._. So i am the first! <: Thn meet youliang at S11 there. Thn carol and choonyong came. (: Thn we go eat! Yay! I ate the prawn mee. ._. 4.20bucks. LIKE A CRAZY. Thn after tht we went to fairprice! Laughs, we at fairprice damn long i swear. <: Was like walking here and there~ Bought alot of things! Total 122+. @.@

Thn we at the taxi stand, take photo until crazy! HAHAHAH! Funny like a maximum. Thn around 6+, we take cab go down Sembawang Park. ^^ Thn reach there, spammed call kj. ._. He keep never ans! Thn we ownself go setup. ._. Like a lame. ._. Thn took alot pictures! Carol uploading now. <:

YayYayYay! Muahahahhah~ Texting fatfat nows. (: We've been texting since 11+. I guess this is the longest ever since, tht day.. Laughs.. Hmmhmm, where have i stop? Ohhohh! Thn dk around what time kl come~ Thn me and youliang was busy wrapping the potato with aluminum foil. <: Thn when kl come, we start the fire! Was kindda a failure. ._. Cause we start for like one hour, youliang gave up halfway~ Thn i take over! I fail. ._. Lame. ._.

Thn when the fire is like abit can oreadi, we try bbq-ing. ._. TOTALLY FAIL. Until nicholas, peiyuan and jared(?) come. The jared(?) help us start fire~ Thn me and carol go toilet, nic and peiyuan go with us. Thn we at there, py and nic played pool. Thn one guy played with py. Laughs. Thn when we go back, OREADI START TO BBQ! ._. Lame. ._. Thn we played around, bbq~ Laughs, py was like the firefighter? Stop fire one. <:

Thn bbq till 11+, they play with the butter and everything. I swear it's fucking funny. <: Thn we all chiong go home! First time uhh, i run like a madwoman in a shopping mall. ._. We all run because we scare we miss last bus. ._. Like crazy siia! Run inside northpoint. Laughs, but damn fun. (: Thn we manage to catch the last bus. (: At bus keep laughing laughing and laughing. <: Hahahh! So bored now. I'm still talking to fatfat! <3 Teehee. (:

Me like. (: Yawns, i wishiwish~ How i wish fatfat is right next to me now. ): Blahhblahhblahh. I'm bored, shall go start saving all those photos~ Gonna upload to blog and facebook later! (: Yay!

Iloveyou. <3

Goodnights.
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

Friday, July 29, 2011 || 1:46 AM

Boring.

On the phone with kj and carol now. Planning where to go. Siianx. Outing. I injured my feet. Like a pig leg now.

I miss you.

Goodnight.
WIthloves,
Sinyi.

Heyy baby.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011 || 5:20 PM

Boy, when i say ' i love you ', i meant it and it's forever, for life.

Heyylo earthlings.

Time check, 4:48.

Today is 26July'11, Tuesday! Lol, nothing special though. Didn't update yesterday, was too lazy. :x Teehee. Don't scold me! Everybody is lazy ohkayy. Well, fatfat is more lazy thn me ohkayy! For some reasons. <: Teehee. <:

Ohkayyy! Yesterday around 3+? Went up to fatfat's house. They bought new kimsim. (: See see, thn played around with fatfat. Thn his mama come back home early. Thn his jie come up his house, slacked awhile, we're off to tamp! To find terence. (: Cause he want pass fatfat some things. Thn we slack at his house downstairs, talking crap. <: Teehee.

Thn 9+, we went to the fairprice at the petrol station, i buy food. <: Fatfat pei-ed me. Thn his jie went home. Hmmhmm, thn followed fatfat go meet ivan&co. Conflicts. Don't wana talk much. Thn around 10+, fatfat send me go busstop! Cause at there really very siianx. ._. Thn wait for my bus come, we played around, like kids like tht. <: I like. ^^ Thn my bus come, fat went opp to take his bus. (: He going home~

And he today meeting his jie~ And i'm dead at home. :/

Yawns, need learn alotalotalot of things. All starting from basics! No skipping. >: I just hope i'll be able to learn as much as possible before fatfat go army. Cause learning with him is like playing. No stress and everything, won't awkward oso. :x So yeaa~ One month to learn the *jiu*, learn huatsoh, everything everything! Wahh! Now i'm stressed. ._. LOLOL, let's hope i can learn quickly and pick up things quickly. I don't wana get scold for being lazy. :x Heehee.

Ohhohh~ I'm bored~! Yesterday headache until sibei jialat, lie down only, head pain like a motherfucker. ): Now oso abit pain. *sobsob* Am i gonna die or something? ): I'm just kidding, fat will scold me if he sees this. ._. Theres once my headache until very jialat, thn i thought i kena brain cancer all tht, fatfat scold me for thinking too much. ._. Lalalala~ I'm so bored~ Dk fat at where now. Yawns. Shall go find something to do! Phone left with 1 dollar, shall find a way to top up soon! Maybe gonna go popo there work. Friday, outing. (:

I hope this outing won't fail, cause liang gonna study oreadi. His exams coming oreadi~ Yawns, i'm seriously bored. ._.

Fatfat, you never fail to brighten up my day with your silly actions. (: Just a call form you or a text always change me from ): to (: .Teehee, i love you silly. (:

So i'm off~

Goodbye~ (:

Withloves,

Sinyi.

Monday, July 25, 2011 || 3:36 AM

' I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face and that one girl in your life who can never be replaced '

Are you mine?

|| 1:09 AM

Even though we're not together, but somewhere in your heart, I exist.

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 12:28am

HELLO PEOPLE! Bet you all miss me right? Ohkayy, i officially sounded stupid. It's like talking to myself. ._. Whatever. ._. OHKAYY! Shall start right now! Hmmhmm. Where did i stop? I'm trying my best to think back ohkayy! Don't nag. ._.

Ohkayy. Hmm. Friday around 2.40+, i wake up from my lalaland~ Text fatfat to sleep the night before. Thn wake up, saw fatfat's text~ He ask me call him. ._. And he send me the text at umm, 2.20+. Well, teehee. <: Called him, and he ask me if i wana go bugis~ Thn i say ohkayy. Thn he say he take bus come my house here, thn when he reach he come up~ So i jitao go bath. When i bath finish, until like half an hour or more thn tht, he thn reach. ._. And he totally thought my sister was my mum. ._. Laughs!

Thn we went to eunos mrt~ Take train go down bugis there. Buy kimsim! (: With beekorkor. And fatfat's ganjie. Hmmhmm. We bought alot alot alot of things! Thn crap around with fatfat alot tht day. <3 He keep disiao me! And bully me! Thn terence came! Thn he help me bully fatfat back. Laughs. I totally like tht day. (: Cause fatfat keeps on accompanying me. (:

Thn around 7+, fatfat's parents come to fetch us~ Thn they go to pasir ris there eat, i go tamp find mama. To see god~ (: The god gave me a 'fu'. Laughs. Thn say alot things about me. ._. Shocking much? Blahhblahhblahh. Thn around dk what time, fatfat call me say tonight going up cemetery. Dk go do what, jiu know today confirm won't go home one. ._. Thn jiu tell mama i never go home, mama fetch me go TM there, i alight. Gave me 20bucks. Cab go down fatfat's house~

Thn when i reach, they all preparing things oreadi~ Thn bath and everything~ (: Around dk what time, we're off! But first, we go terence's house. Take things. (: Thn xiuyi pei me go the fairprice buy FOOD. Cause i didn't eat. And fatfat has to go take things, thn he cannot pei me go. >: Thn i bought two blackpepperchicken! (: And famousAmosCookie! (: Teehee~ And STRAWBERRY TEA~ (:

Thn going up was a LONG journey. ): Thn when we reach, go praypray and stuffs. Not gonna talk much about it. Thn midnight oreadi~ WHEN WE AT DK WHERE, WE TOTALLY JUST LOST OUR WAYS! OHHMYGAWD, VERY SCARY OHKAYY?! I thought we have to call police and tell them we're lost. ._. Lame i know. ._.

Hmm, thn reach home~ Take clothes, and change! I know i very auto, teehee. Fat oso like tht say. Bobian, he's house is like my second home. <: I'm free to take any clothes! Well, not ANY clothes though. Laughs! Thn never watch show tht day. Help fatfat massage his shoulder, i think he muscle tear. ._. Laughs. Use all my strength to help him massage! Muahhaah~

Thn we're both off to sleep! Thn midnight keep wake up to check on fatfat. Cause i scare he will like wake up due to the pain. Thn help he massage his shoulder and everything. (: And he keeps ordering me to go to sleep. ._. Thn morning, i wake up for awhile, thn i sleep all the way till 2+! Teehee~ Fatfat keep come in and disturb my sleeep! But i like. <3 Heehee. He keep say ' Wahh, got so tired marhh?' I think he wants me to wake up and accompany him. Cause when i wake up, he jitao complain he's very siianx. ._.

Thn lie on him and watch tv~ (: Thn around 3+? I change clothes and everything~ Eat rice~ Thn we're off! We go to TP, find his ganjie. Thn i from there take bus go home. (: Thn fat and his ganjie go bugis there find beekorkor. Buy kimsim again. (: Reach home, went to buy a little bit of tibits. Go home, emo. ._. 6+ text my bloody sister ask her what time come home, she say soon. 9+ say she waiting for bus. I ask her cab home, extra i pay. 10+ she still not yet home! I jitao angry until dk what. Fucking hungry, go down buy food myself. Cb, ask her need wait for anot, she say ohkayy. In the end she go eat herself. Fucked up one.

Thn when she come back, idw let her come in the house. Let her stand outside for like dk how long. <: Thn help her open the door. Thn daddy come home.

Wahhhhh~ Fatfat still haven top up his phone? Cause text him no reply. Stupid pig. ): Don't like you oreadi lurhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. >: My babyboy? (: I love you. Teehee. (: Yawns, my drink is at fatfat's house! Dk what will he do to it. ._. I cannot imagine~ LOLOL! Maybe he'll rape it, who know? :b I'm just kidding! (:

Fatfat uhh, what are you doing leyy? I miss you nehh. ): Blahhblahhblahh.

Andand, it's 'OwYeongBaoBei', not 'XiaoBaoBei' horhh! Stupid fatfat. <3

Goodnights.
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

I'm still waiting.

Saturday, July 23, 2011 || 1:54 AM

Hello.

Time check, 1:19am.

I'm still awake. Saw you online just now.. Last time even though your phone has no money, you'll msg me on facebook.. I guess now you really wana hack care me oreadi huh? Sighs.. It's ohkayy.. I'll wait.. Maybe we really won't meet each other oreadi barhh.. If only i can see your face for the last time.. And just hug you for the last time.. Boy, tht would actually mean alot..

Today sleep until 4+. When sleeping, phone keep ringing.. And i thought it's you.. But it's weiling.. Sighs.. Idk what to do. ): Tell me will you? No matter what, i just can't get you talking.. I've been waiting for your reply all this while.. Even though i know the chance of you replying would be slim.. I still won't let go of the chance..

Boy, i miss you truckloads. And i love you too.

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi.

Can i call you 'OwYeongBaobei' again?

Friday, July 22, 2011 || 4:53 AM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 4:23am.

I couldn't sleep.. You're on my mind the whole time.. Tell me what to do.. I'm going crazy oreadi. ): Idk if i should regret writting tht letter.. You had no idea how i felt when i left your house.. I totally just wana run to some place, hide and cry all i can.. Fatfat.. </3

I ran out of words to say.. All i can ever say is, i love you and it'll never change. I left a little something with you, please take care of it.. Don't break it anymore, because i couldn't take it back.. I always pray to be unbroken, but without you, i'm just incomplete.. I wish i knew what's on your mind.. Do you want me to stay? Or you'll just let me go?

I'm broken, and i'm incomplete. What's worse? Sometimes, really.. I just wish, i can read your mind.. Sometimes, i just wish you would tell me how you feel about me.. Tht's enough.. Sighs.. I'm going to sleep.. I just hope i can, cause my eyes is swollen like mad fuck right now.. I wonder if you'll reply me..

I wish i can call you mine again.. It's been weeks, perhaps a month.. Since i last call you, 'baobei' ..

Goodnights,

Withloves,

Sinyi.

Heartbroken.

Thursday, July 21, 2011 || 10:42 PM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 9:22pm.

I'M HEARTBROKEN. Tht last kiss, means anything? I'm STRESSED. I'll always remember how you always cover my head when we're walking under the rain, although it doesn't help much.. How i'll always grab your hand and hold tight and you would the same when we walk on slippery floor, and you will say ' You fall i fall. ' Am i silly? When i asked you if you love me yesterday, you said 'Ya.' When normally you would say ' i loveyou..' Guess i was just silly huh? Sighs..

Just now at bus stop, i keep looking at your house tht direction, and think about alot of things. And was thinking if you come all the way from your house to the busstop just to see if i'm still there and talk things out with me.. Well, and thn suddenly someone shoot my ear. ._. I turn around, its you.. I was very shock! I ask you why are you here, and you told me tht you're going to find beekorkor.. Suddenly, disappointment took over me.. I don't dare to look into your eyes.. I knew you read the letter oreadi..

When my bus came, my leg was rooted to the ground.. I couldn't feel it anymore, it was obeying me.. It wanted to stay.. But i knew tht if i skip my bus, you wouldn't do the same for me.. So i walked away.. Before i board the bus, you asked me ' So you won't be meeting me from now on?' Idk what to ans.. I'm afraid tht you would be rushing, if not i'll definitely stay and talk things out with you.. I just wana hug you and never let you go.. But i'll be selfish tht way.. You have your own happiness to find.. I won't blame you anymore.. Because, i'm just not meant to be your happiness..

Guess tht i made you angry more thn i make you smile and laugh. Do you know how silly i was? My tears drop when i'm on the bus. I keep holding the tears back, from your house, to the busstop, to the bus, until my house downstairs.. I couldn't hold it back anymore.. It dropped down again.. I know tht after i wrote tht letter, after you read it.. I won't ever have the chance to hug you or see you anymore.. Because when you ask me tht question at busstop, you seem like nothing has changed..

You just called me and ask me the same question again.. I can hear tht you're kindda frustrated.. But why? It's not tht i don't wana meet you anymore.. You should know tht! Like i've said in the letter.. You should understand why.. You never clear my doubts.. You just let things stay as it is..

We quarreled yesterday.. I cried until my eyes swollen.. It's the first time tht you treat me tht way.. You push me away everytime i try to grab you.. I'm sorry, i forget tht i wasn't in any position to control you and everything.. I nearly let my selfish get me.. When i say tht sentence, i was prepared tht you would go crazy and everything oreadi.. You told me to text you, and now you're not replying.. What am i expecting? Action speaks louder thn words..

I'll be waiting for you to reply..

你好傻..

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi.

她让你憔悴许多, 她让你不知所措. 她一举一动, 你不停的对我说. 我微笑倾听你说, 我却越听越心痛. 怎么你说的不是我? 她比我多了什么让你愿意耐心等候? 我想知道她让你痴心是什么, 我想知道她让你疯狂为什么. 我知道做的和她没有不同, 但是我却不在你心中逗留. 我想知道她哪里比我好很多, 在你心中她和我有什么不同? 我知道我比她付出的还多, 可是我总换不了你的心动. 你让我憔悴很多, 你让我不知所措. 你一举一动, 我的心被牵着走. 她不经意地走过, 你就把我给冷落, 嫉妒把我给吞没. 我想知道她让你痴心是什么, 我想知道她让你疯狂为什么. 我知道做的和她没有不同, 但是我却不在你心中逗留. 我想知道她哪里比我好很多, 在你心中她和我有什么不同? 我知道我比她付出的还多, 可是我总换不了你的心动. 我知道了她比哪里比我很跟多, 在你心中我永远不可能让你心动. 我知道我比她付出的还多, 可是我在你心中没有她多.

Hi, stalker♥

Tuesday, July 19, 2011 || 2:15 AM

You have no idea how deep my love was for you. I love you even after the end of this world.

Hello earthlings! (:

Time check, 1:34am. (:

Yawns. Just now talk on the phone with fatfat! (: Teehee, we crap around alot. And he keeps on saying tht he's not tired when he's yawning like some madass! How cute. <: Laughs, i laughed alot when i talked to him. And we keep saying the same thing! :p Me like! (: Was on the phone with fatfat for an hour. (: And thn he finally gave up! Hahahah! Cause his eyes closing oreadi. I can totally imagine him with tht look, damn silly. <3 Teehee. (:

Thn when we say byebye, we're waiting for each other to hang up the phone. Laughs, <: Thn for few minutes later, the call haven end, we both say 'hello?' Laughs! Thn i ask him why haven hang up, he say ' not you hang up derhh mehh?' Laughs! Thn i say the same thing to him back. <: Thn in the end, i hang up. :x Teehee, cause i want him to go sleep! Although abit bu she de, but still, he has to sleep. (:

Weeee~ I wish we'll be like this forever~ <: Cause i'm totally enjoying this moment. <: Teehee, he's my stalker. (: Yawns, i'm missing him oreadi. :x Teehee, shall go sleep oreadi! Cause if i go sleep now, sure sweetdreams one. <: Cause i just talked on the phone with fatfat! <: Muahhaha~ Nobody can ever replace you, sweetie. You're my one and only. (: The one and only boy tht captures my heart. Fat, wo ai ni♥. Teehee~

Fatfat uhh, you must be sleeping soundly now. (: Like a pig horhh? <: Yes! Lovely pig! <: Laughs, i can't remember how long have i called you 'fatfat'. Teehee, I remember how tht name comes, its because tht time, you have big tummy! And heehee, you're fat. But i still love you. <3 Lalala~ My this post all about fatfat siia. <: Me like! I wish there's more of this kind of post. Well, fat is bugging me about going his house and dig his ear, again. >: Treat me like maid only him. ): Bad right? Laughs! He dk how dig himself, thn dw ask other people help him dig. Like cute only lurhh him. <:

Fatfat~ Goodnights, sweetest candypop dream to you~ (: I love you, fatfat. (:

Fat, this is for you. (:
' Life is too short to worry about what others say or think about you. Have fun and give them something to talk about. '

Goodnights,
Withloves,
SinYi♥
Fatpig, i loveyou. (:

If i can be replaced so easily, it just means i'm not special right?

Monday, July 18, 2011 || 4:02 PM

They just don't get why i'm still in love with you after all this heartbreaking things. I can't explain either. Not everyone can understand what's happening between us. Because love only consist of me and you.

Hello earthlings, (:

Time check, 3:23pm. (:

Currently having heart to heart talk with sist. (: I kindda explain to her everything, and she tell me alot things too.. I just wish tht last friday, i open my fucking mouth and ask you.. But i'm just afraid of ans.. Idk what has gotten into you again today.. You replied one word one word. Gawd, fuck this shit. ):

Today whole day at home.. I think i'm gonna go sleep soon.. I wana stop thinking, i wana stop feeling.. But even my dream is bullying me! I keep dreaming of you, again and again.. OwYeongJianFeng, when will things get better? When will you just tell me how you feel? If only i have the ability to read minds. Won't tht be great? I won't be selfish, i just want to read your mind..

Hao fan, hao fan.. AHHHH! Going die oreadi narhh! ): Think until want die oreadi!!!!! ): Sad die me. ): Sighs.. Fatfat, i miss you truckloads narhh. >: Sighs.. I don't wana update lerhh..

Fat, i loveyou.

Withloves,
Sinyi.

Fatfat, i love you.

Sunday, July 17, 2011 || 12:13 AM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 11:41pm. (:

Yawns.. :/ Freaking tired. Leg damn tired. Laughs. Hmmhmm, yesterday, cab down to fatfat's house. <3 Thn when i reach right, fatfat tell me yewkeng change. ._. Thn lol, slack at his house. We keep playing around, watch movie till 1+. Teehee~ c: Me like! Thn i keep disturb him, he keep disturb me. ^^ Thn slowly, we both tired oreadi, thn we sleep! Two people squeeze one bed! Laughs, luckily i never fall off the bed. :b

Fatfat at night keep snatch my blankie! ): So bad of him. ): Thn at night quite cold, so we keep snatching blankie. :b Teehee, thn morning wake up by fatfat! Jiu wake up and play around with him. Laughs! Thn jiu do his umm, 'necklace'. He totally just use my concept! Laughs, just kidding. We came up the idea together. (: Thn jiu go bath~ Thn come out, jiu continue doing the thingie. Hmmhmm..

Thn after tht, mrt to bukitbatok! At the train keep playing around with fatfat. ^^ Me like! Laughs, we keep make each other. (: Thn reach batok, walk go eat. (: Thn go for yewkeng, actually is yew kampong. (: Was very tireddddddd~ And fatfat is keeping something from me.. Well.. It's not a must tht he tells me anything, because, i'm just a friend? Idk.. I don't want us to be just friends.. Blahhblahhblahh..

Thn go back oreadi, sit down awhile, saw cousie. (: Thn after tht, walk go coffee shop~ Didn't eat though, had no appetite. ): This few days keep like tht, its been months oreadi siia. :c When is all this gonna stop?! Nabei, thn head keep pain like no tomorrow. ._. Hmmhmm, last night fatfat's mummy ask fatfat to ask me learn things. :x Teehee. Thn fat say i have ALOT to learn. :c Well, tht kindda scare me. ._. After eat, at there they talk about things. Thn my phone keep ringing. ._. Text and text~ Was actually going to prawn with bell, but i'm too tired.. ):

Thn straight go home, say byebye to everybody~ Well, i used to kiss you before i go off. Now, we just bye to each other.. Sighs.. My phone rang just now, and i thought its you.. Hahaha, impossible ain't it? Sighs.. I just wish, i know what we are.. BECAUSE I'M SO CONFUSED. ._. I didn't manage to ask you last night.. Instead, i shed tears.. Such a weakling.. :c

Fatfat, i miss you so much.. Wo men shi shen me guan xi? I love you.. It's because i love you, tht why i don't wana give you any stress.. Sighs, what should i do? Wo hao xiang ni.. I wish we're just more thn friends.. Sometimes, when our hand knock, i wish i could just hold you hand.. Sometimes when we're walking, i wish i could 'lock' my hand on your arm.. I miss lying on your shoulder when i'm sleepy.. I miss everything.. Sometimes, i just wish i could disappear.. So tht it'll hurt much lesser.. I really wish tht you'll tell me how you feel.. Fat, i love you.. </3

Goodnights,
Withloves,
SinYi.

heyy boy.

Friday, July 15, 2011 || 10:28 AM

Your heartbeat is my sweetest melody.

Hello earthlings! (:

Time check, 9:44am. (:

I'm so tired! Just reach home! Work 1hour+ today only. Teehee~ (: Tonight going fatfat's house overnight. Hmm, tomorrow yewkeng. (: Shall start oreadi~ (:

Yesterday, 1+ end work, cab go fatfat's house. Was veryveryvery tired. So yeaa.. Thn reach his house, jitao go bath. :/ Teehee. After bath, feel better. And he's totally nagging me about packing his clothes! Laughs! Thn i dry hair liao, he keep disturb me! ): Thn i jiu open his wardrobe, and its like a MOUTAIN! Laughs! Thn i did one thing, i jitao pull out ALL the clothes. And i threw away alot of his old clothes! :p Teehee~

Thn slowly fold his clothes, well, i'm proud tht i didn't fall asleep while folding! :b Thn his friends come, kpkb only. ._. Thn i call fatfat to close room door, and thn ask them don't come in. So fatfat went out to entertain his group of friends. (: Thn leave me ALONE, folding. ): But sometimes he will come in pei me awhile. Me like. (: Heehee. Thn i promise fatfat tht when he got money, i bring him go shopping. (: Heehee. I like to dress people up, but i'm like too lazy to dress myself up. :b Weird right?! I know. :/

Thn went to loyang point eat, thn after eat, walk back. Thn reach his house, keep everything nicely, i MOP his floor! Well, kindda lurhh. :b Teehee. Thn jiu straight go his papa factory, thn jiu go up BukitBatoh. (: Ohhwait, fetch beekorkor first. Well, i realise alot of things now.. This is humanity right? We should just accept the fact tht people bitch around. (:

When at bus, keep talking to fatfat, talk until mouth dry up oreadi. ._. Stupid fatfat. Went BukitBatoh to see ahpek zoh keh. <: And they invite two troupe of lion. ._. Thn we stand there watch video, laughs. They last time yewkeng's video. (: Thn at there joke and laugh with fatfat. Teehee. <: Me like. (: Ohhohh, i'm gonna go sleep oreadi~ Damn tired ohkayy! Later dk got go anywhere nots. Dk today BukitBatoh got anything on.

Fatfat, you're prolly sleeping now. And you're a bigfatpig. (: I miss you, idiot.. I like this better like this.. I don't want anything to become bad.. And you didn't notice, something is missing.. Well, guess you don't care either.. (:

Goodnights,
Withloves,
SinYi. (:

I miss you.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011 || 9:44 PM

No matter what i do, i always forget to forget you. </3

Hello earthlings!

Time check, 8:39pm. (:

I'm so damn tired! ): Well, actually today was suppose to go PACKING THINGS. ._. But fat went out. Lame. ._. Came home, bath and everything. Thn he ask me want go his dad factory later, awhile ask me want go marhh, awhile say don't need oreadi. ._. Sometimes, his moodswings are kindda making me have moodswings too..

Well, yesterday after help popo, come back home, bath and everything. Went to fat's daddy's factory. ._. As usual, i walk there myself~ Cause fat is lazy. (: And well, he's lazy cause he's fat. Tht true right? (: Teehee~ (: Thn went bukitbatoh~ Ohhohh~ Was actually thinking theres SHOW! But never. ._. Hmmhmm, thn we stay at there till 10+. During this time, me and fat like cannot seperate one. :x Teehee~ Me like! (:

Thn around 9+, HE MADE ME ANGRY. ): I was really really angry, ohkayy, mostly, SAD. Cause of something, thn i walk away. Cause my arm really veryveryvery pain. When i walk away, i thought fatfat will come after me.. But i guess i wasn't tht important.. So yeaa, anyway.. Sat there and think about alot of things..

Hmm, around 10+, they discuss finish things, jiu go oreadi. Saw the zaizai kimsim. Well, one word, FAIL. ._. Everybody oso like tht say~ Tskktskk. Now got ge tai at my house downstairs. JIALAT LEYY! But i still manage to sleep, so WHATEVER. (: Hohohoho~

Now at weiling's blogshop. Gonna buy clothes oreadi, and since i'm lazy, i'll have everything send to my house. (: Teehee~ (: Ohkayy! Shall go sleep, right now. Ohh wait, is dinner first. Well, i had a weird dream just now. I dream of MBK people again. ._. Lame. And i dreamt tht i SPRAINED my ankle. ): Damnit. ):

Fatfat, ni zai na li? ): Wo hao xiang ni ohh.. Well, i'm bored, and i misses you. What's worse? Somehow, i hope, sighs.. Nevermind.. You're going army soon, i'm gonna miss you badly. ): I wonder how would life be inside for you.. Wo yong yuan dou zou bu jing ni derhh xin li.. Yi zhi zai wai mian.. Hao nan shou ohh.. Sighs.. You'll never understand.. I just wish, i could stay longer in your heart, but i was being kick out weren't i? How pathetic.. Fat, i miss you..

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

Maple Short Story - Please Don't Lie to Me Again

Tuesday, July 12, 2011 || 3:07 AM

[Short Story] How Much Do You Love Me?

|| 3:01 AM

[Short Story] Teddy Bears

|| 2:05 AM

I cried while i watch this vid. Its touching. Its just like me and you. To me, you're the only guy. But maybe, to you, i'm just another girl.. You always have alot of girls beside you, and i'm just another one.. They had your smiles, your love, your everything.. Everything tht i couldn't have.. You get jealous because of them.. You get angry and get upset when they didn't reply you or pick up your calls.. Well, me? I don't think you care.. Boy, do you know how much you mean to me? If one day you're gone*touchwood*, I really don't know what will happen to me.. You mean more thn anything/anyone in this world.. You're the reason for everything..

Fatfat..

|| 2:02 AM

' To me, he's the only one. But perhaps, to him, i'm just another girl.. '

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 1:33am.

Yawns, i'm yawning, But i can't fall asleep. I'm spending my time watching all those maple stories on youtube. I cried while watching some, cause it's really touching and, yeaaa, it kindda relate to me.. It's 2:00am oreadi! Mad! Gonna go sleep! 3 hours left! ): I hope hope hope i don't overslept. Cause if i do, i'm dead.. .__.

Fatfat, are you asleep? I miss you..

Goodnights.
Withloves,
SinYi.

A word.

Monday, July 11, 2011 || 7:37 PM

When will things get right? When will you be mine?

Hello earthlings,

Time check, 7:30pm.

Yawns, i'm going to bed soon. Tomorrow have to help popo. (: Sighs.. Remember how you used to fetch me from work? I remember when was it, April1. April Fools. Laughs.. Sighs.. Whole day rot at home again. Save money i guess? Lol. Drinking on the 28 or 29 or 30th. Liang still couldn't decide when to go. ._. Maybe he not going, like seriously, turn off. ._. Cause at first all promise to go together one.. Thn now.. Who's to blame? He has school..

Bored maximum.. How i wish, tomorrow you'll suddenly appear at haig road. Laughs.. Impossible.. I'm trying my damnest.. Just a word from you.. Do you love me or not? Well.. I don't expect an ans, cause you always ignore me when i say iloveyou.. Well, thts everything..

Fat, i miss you..

Every girl has that one guy she goes back to, heartbreak after heartbreak, the one guy she just can't let go. </3

Goodnights.
Withloves,
SinYi.

Giving up, perhaps is the best solution..

|| 1:07 PM

Hello earthlings, (:

Time check, 12:51am.

I'm giving up.. As long as you're happy, i'm fine with anything.. Even if it means seeing you happy with some other girl.. What matters the most is you being happy.. (: Why still treat me so good? When you're oreadi seeing some other girls? Do you know how much it hurts? I've been trying so hard to win you back.. But i guess, i lost..

Suan lerhh.. It doesn't matter anymore.. Ni kai xin jiu hao.. I don't matter anymore.. I'll let you go.. I know its easier to be said thn done.. I'll try my hardest to let you go.. I never fail to fail in both relationships and friends.. This moment right now, i wish, i could disappear.. I won't get close to you anymore.. I won't try and grab any chance i can get just to see you..

陈欣怡, 放手吧.. 他已经走到很远了.. 而且他现在有了别人.. 已经没办法了..

Life is cracking a joke on me, i really stopped dreaming of you anymore.. Execpt for just now, i dream tht.. Sighs.. No use saying it now..

Goodbye..

loser. :/

|| 12:29 PM

I feel like a loser. :/

All i ever wanted, was you.

|| 2:53 AM

You know, right when you enter my life, all i've ever wanted was, you.

Hello earthlings. (:

Time check, 1:29am. c:

I'm bored right now. ._. Any kind souls wana pei me viwawa? <: Teehee~ Today around 4+ meet carol they all at plaza. Yawns. Thn I thought i'm the last one to reach siia. MEI XIANG DAO~ Choonyong haven even reach when i reach. ._. In the end we waited for him for like dk how long. Laughs, he reach, jitao straight want go toilet. ._. We've been planning where to go lurhh~ Thn is like, NO WHERE. ._. Siianx.

Thn we at the staircase there discuss like long only. Thn in the end, we went mall. ._. See liang and choonyong eat. Laughs. Thn after tht, we went to eat dessert! <: Which is choonyong's 'supper'. LAUGHS! I ate mango snow ice! Yay! So damn nice. Liang ate durian snow ice, choonyong ate chocolate snow ice. (: Teehee. <: Its so nice ohkayyyyy!

Thn carol just sit there and see us eat. Hahahah! Thn we're discussing about when going drink, and my dream! I dream tht we'll go drink on either 28 or 29. And confirm got go MBK. Laughs! But the 28 and 29 is on monday and tuesday. So i check, its november~ c: So maybe november going drink again. Teehee~ <:

Ohhohh, tues to friday confirm me die. :c Need go help popo in the morning, like a tired only~ Thn today tracy aunt brought tania come! <: Teehee. I carried her! I swear i damn clumsy. :x Heehee. c: She's so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee! And chubby! Well, i kindda talked to her for like awhile, and she kindda replied! <: Teehee! Tht makes my day~ c: Yay! And thn, she hold my finger, laughs! I swear she's damn cute. <: And i'm older thn her by 17 years! Ohhmygawd right? Laughs! My baby cousin. c:

Well, where i have stopped? Ohhohh! We're discussing until very happy, planning to open what liquor. And thn jiarong come, asked him want go anot. He say can, but we confirm cannot go in one. ._. Jitao turn off. Laughs! Thn carol and jiarong went to eat, at plaza there. The western. Thn me, liang and choonyong went to buy SUSHI! <3<3<3 Teehee~ Liang pay for me one sushi. <: See! He so nice. <: Yay! Thn we went to 300+ to eat our sushi! We walk one big round just to find seats. ._. Thn after awhile, carol and jiarong come find us. c: We slacked for awhile, thn walk to the bus stop. Plaza one. Thn liang, carol, choongyong and jiarong go back. Me walk to inter take bus. c:

Thn bus back home, saw downstairs got things. Thn stay there to see for awhile. Thn went up, come down with meimei again to see the lion dance. Laughs, got 5 lions, 1 jump zhuang, silver one, very pretty, thn the 4 orange one is cai qing. <: Thn got two dragon! One gold one very nice, the other one is very common, no likey. Laughs! We thought when the lion cai qing finish and jump finish zhuang jiu end liao, we went up. Suddenly got the dragon derhh drum sound, meimei say want go down watch, pei-ed her go down watch. (:

Thn when its FINALLY finished, we went up. Use comp and everything. Just now played viwawa with meimei. Laughs, we keep saying each other 'burden'. HAHAHAH! Ji funny yi xia. And meimei is now sleeping! I'm alone. ._.

Fatfat is sleeping i guess, he never reply me.. Neverminds.. It makes sense too. c: Well, just now he called me and tell me he climbing up the stairs with his kimya derhh kimsim. Laughs, from 1st floor climb go up 7th floor. Poor thing right? c: Laughs! He just replied! Fat, still not yet asleep. ._.

Hmm.. Damn, just now my post 1/3 gone. ._. Now i don't remember what i post anymore. Fuck blogger. Seriously. ._. Ohkayy, gonna refresh my MEMORIES. Damned.

Fatfat uhh, i miss you.. :c Well, sometimes, a simple yes or no, is what makes life better or worse.. I keep having the urge to text you, but idk what to say.. And i'm afraid tht you would be busy or find tht i'm irritating or what.. I'm always the first one to start texting, and we'll always end up sending each other smiley faces. Why? Idk why, its like, we totally have nothing else to say.. Here i am, crying again.. I'm so afraid of getting hurt again.. Can you stop my tears? I wish, i have the courage, to ask.. I'd give anything up, just to have back your love.. I'd give anything up, just to have you by my side again, never leaving.. You never say if you love me, you never say tht you don't. You just kept quiet.. I wish i can ask you to go drink on this 28 or 29 or 30th.. Cause whenever i drink, you're the one tht is by my side, protecting me and yes, carrying me when i'm dead drunk. c:

You just say anything just text you.. Sighs.. I wonder if i can just text you. Fat, i miss you.. Blahhs.. I'm so tired.. Sometimes, i just wish you'll auto start a convo with me.. Well, i guess it's impossible.. c: I'm tired oreadi~ (: Gonna go sleep oreadi. (: I wish you'll dream of me.. Cause i'm missing you right now.. Wonder if you're asleep.. When i can't sleep last time, i can always text you.. But now? Sighs.. Don't think so i guess? I need your love again, where are you? ):

Goodnights.
Withloves,
SinYi. c:

You're worth it.

Saturday, July 9, 2011 || 10:40 PM

The only thing i know is tht, i love you and you're worth fighting for.

Hello earthlings. (:

Time check, 9:43pm.

Bored die me! I wonder what's happening downstairs. ._. I've been hearing drums since 8+. ._. Until now. Laughs. Stupid meimei going out at this time. Wtf, if i have money, i'm oso outside right now. ._. Damn it. ._.

Today whole day rot and home~ I keep reading those letters again and again. Those tht i wrote, but didn't pass give you. I keep them inside my wallet. Sighs.. Bu yao shuo lerhh. Today dua youliang&co. :x Teehee. And thn just not long ago, liang called me and say i owe him one. ._. And thn use tht to 'kiao' me out tomorrow. ._. SMART RIGHT HIM?! Stupid. But its like damn funny, only i can dig him come out, and only he can manage to dig me come out. HAHAHAH!

Lucky i didn't go out today. ._. It's like irritating, but no offence. Idk, i'm shoo-ing him. ._. Wtf only. I miss fatfat! ): Asshole. ): Where are youuuu? ): Ohh right, i have no rights to ask anything. Sorry. Pfft. I'm dying at home. ._. Damn the motherfucker~ Lolol! I'm not talking about anyone, just bored and random. <: Teehee~ <:

Yawns, today heat up some food. Ate just the food, no rice or porridge. Laughs. All thanks to meimei lurhh. ._. I eat a little bit only jiu feel like vomiting oreadi. Damn the headaches, always causing me to be like this. :c Burden only. >: Siianx. Daddy is home! And i can use internet oreadi. <: Teehee~ OHKAYY! I hear sounds, drums and everything. ._. I wonder what's going on. But like don't have alot people downstairs leyy. ._. Whatever. I'm lazy anyway. c:

Fatfat uhh, ni zai zuo semo? I'm so bored. Blahhblahhblahh. I miss you. 因为我的执著, 造成了两颗心的痛苦. Fatfat, ni hen fei, ke shi wo hai shi hen ai ni. c:

Gonna go off! Watch my naruto and thn play viwawa? c: Anybody wana play? c: Teehee~ This smiley like cute only right? This one -> c: And ohhya, you have to click on 'You know my name, not my story' to see my past entries. <:

Goodnights! (:
Withloves,
SinYi. c:

You may not be perfect in other's eyes, but you are in mine.

|| 12:04 AM

Letting him go doesn't mean you stopped caring. It means you stopped trying to force him to.

Hello earthlings. (:

Time check, 10:41am. <:

After blogging, jiu go pompom, thn go fatfat's house pass him his wallet oreadi. <: Yawns. (: Yesterday damn fun lurhh! <: Teehee~ <:

Yesterday cab down to amk, cause i thought i late oreadi. SCARLY, i reach, all just reach. ._. Only choonyong. We actually planned to go CauseWayPoint watch derhh. But in the end scared cannort reach in time. So went to amk watch. Transformer : Dark of the moon! <: Teeheee. Watched 3.30 movie, during the movie, went to toilet. ._. Carol pei-ed me go. Laughs. Luckily we didn't miss the exciting part. <:

Thn come back, watched. After watch movie right, actually planning to go fatfat house and pass him his wallet. But in the end never, jiu go woodland waterfront with carol&co. <: We mrt go woodlands. Thn bus go there. Like one group of ah hai like tht. Psst. Thn carol go ask one guy when to alight at waterfront. Laughs. Thn he say later thn tell us. We at bus damn funny. Keep playing around. <:

Thn alight bus, walked to jetty end. Took photos, and thn slack at there. <: Teehee~Thn kj damn slow i swear! Like slow pig only. laughs! <: Thn he came, we photo again. We're like trying to figure out how to make the flash and everything. Until the camera NO BATTERY. ._. Laughs, damn epic. We took alot of funny photos. <: Now waiting for carol to upload. <: Teehee~

Thn dk around what time, we went to eat! (: I mean carol and youliang and choonyong ate. <: Thn i never eat. Cause not hungry, plus i now see food jiu like no appetite. ._. Jialat right? I know. ._. And I'M NOT PREGNANT. For god's sake. ._. I've been repeating myself for like 1827398123 times. ._. BlahhBlahhBlahh. Thn kj ordered beer. Thn beer a cup or so. Jiu abit hard to breathe. Dk why drink beer always like this one.

Thn we all pangseh kj at there, all went home. Cause very tired liao marhh. Thn i was suppose to meet fatfat in the morning. But in the end, he afternoon come my house here find me take his wallet. (: Thn he nowhere go, ask him want pei me go eat marhh. Thn he say ohkayy. So went to coffeeshop eat. (: I swear the ice milo there, taste like, plum+coffee+milo. ._. DISGUSTING~ Thn after tht we at coffeeshop crap and crap. Laughs! c:

Thn was like thinking where to go, actually wanted to ask him go blk15 slack, tht was the place i first slack with him. Laughs. Thn there recently something happen. So yeaa, never go there. Instead he keep bugging me about his pimples. ._. And the time when i promise him i will help him do mask. ._. So went to his house, he treat me like maid only. Right?! >: Laughs! Thn we cab go his house. But first, i bought seaweed! <: Teehee~ <: Thn went his house. Blahhblahhblahh~ Thn around dk what time, i on comp. <: Thn use facebook all those. Thn he show me the show. Damn funny i swear. ' If you cook in the jungle, and the enemy's aircraft fly pass, saw the smoke, they all bombard the whole area!' HAHAHAH! I swear it's funny. <:

Thn his parents come fetch us, went eating. (: I didn't eat, for the same reason again. ): Thn we went to bedok north watch ahpek zho keh. LOLOL! I think is like tht spell. :x Teehee~ <: Thn around 10+ i think? Went off. Thn his parents send me home. (: And thn here i am~ Blogging. <: Was actually blogging at his house one. But~ Laughs. And fatfat is kindda addicted to the seaweed! And he keep asking me to feed him. ._. Like i'm the maid like tht. Maid oso have pay nehh! I don't have. ): And yes, as usual, i'm gonna have blue-blacks all over my body AGAIN. Don't ask why. ._. Fatfat bit me and yes, we punch each other. :b Teehee~ Not fair you know, he keeps bullying me! >: Like a big bully. ):

Today at bedok, i wanted to call you. I shouted, ' Bibi! '. And thn i realise, we aren't together.. Thts what pains me. Before i left your house, i was looking for your ring. It wasn't on your table.. I wonder where is it. Hahaa, guess you won't even care. Lalala. You know how much i wanted to whisper 'iloveyou' to you? You know how much i wanted to hug you tightly? I keep calling you 'bi, baby' today. I keep forgetting i shouldn't. Because, you won't even respond to it.. 看着我哭, 你很开心吗? 看着我一天比一天痛苦, 你很开心吗? 不要折磨我了好不好? 如果你爱我,就告诉我好不好? 我爱你爱得好辛苦, 爱得好孤独, 爱得没有退路, 我好无助. 我爱你爱得好辛苦, 爱得好糊涂, 爱得不能醒悟, 你好残酷.

Theres so much so much tht i wanted to tell you face to face.. But i never get the chance to. Do i get to call you mine again? Sighs. Bu yao shuo lerhh.. I text you and tell you tht i'm home, i keep thinking why i did tht.. Perhaps, i'm used to it.. Haha.. Shall stop blogging. (: Gonna go do something else. Or maybe sleep! I'm tired, and sleeping is the only way to stop the pain. Because, in my dreams, you're mine..

FatFat, you're so mega fat. But, i still love you. No matter what you look like. <3 这心痛你明白吗? Do you think of me, our past, before you go to sleep?

Goodnights.