♥Sinyi, Your's Truly

“You know my name, not my story.”

Fat, i love you(:

Wednesday, August 31, 2011 || 3:11 AM

Heyylo earthlings.

This few days keep staying over at fatfat's. Had fun most of the time(: Welllll, fatfat is going army soon. </3 Gonna miss him alotalotalot): 2 weeks later thn can see him. I enjoy just now, when we're at T-Mart(:

It's been so long, ever since i did tht. I wana thank fatfat for sending me to the bus stop just now(: Ai si ni lerhh fatfat(: I'm kindda tired, well, my eyes are tired. Cause keep 'crying' just now. Viewed back fatfat's blog, and i was reminded how much you love me last time. You would give anything just to see me. Remember you say you wana hold my hand forever? Well, i guess you don't.. There's so much things tht i miss, i miss webcamming, i miss this and i miss tht. I miss you whispering 'iloveyou' to me.

I miss everything single little thing, i know sweet things don't last. And people do change,but at least now, i have you right beside me. Although you're not like last time derhh you, but i'm still happy tht you're around. (: I'm learning to appreciate everything, and not cry when it's gone. At least i have the memories. (:

I want to see you in my future, fatfat. Do i get to see you in my future? Remember how you used to say you miss me alot? Now you don't anymore. Well, there's somethings not said by mouth, but it's proved by actions. (:

我终于还是说了一句, 我爱你. 还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨, 心跳的声音, 像舞动奇迹. 你看着我说, 千万不要爱上你, 因为你只会让我伤心, 别傻了快点喊停. 你那么冷静, 忽远又忽近. 我知道我对你来说也许太年轻. 我想, 我猜, 我问, 我终于了解. 原来为爱流的眼泪, 也是种甜蜜滋味. 只想爱你, 当我和你走在一起就已经决定. 不看, 不听, 不问, 也不会放弃. 是你让我了解自己, 可以为爱那么坚定. 只想爱你, 好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你. 我知道我偶尔有一点任性, 不管你做任何决定, 究竟爱我还是逃避. Sorry, 我还是不会放弃爱你. Sorry, 我还是不会放弃, 我还是不会放弃爱你.

Goodnights, headache nows. ):

Goodbye~
Withloves,
Sinyi(:
Fatfat, wo ai ni(:

Fat, i love you(:

Monday, August 29, 2011 || 4:25 AM

Heyylo earthlings! (:

I wonder if fatfat is awake, gonna call him later and say goodnights if he's awake. (: Laughs, i had fun the last few days with fatfat, although there's some things inbetween.. :/ But well, tht's over already! (: YAY! (: Blahhblahhblahh.

I miss fatfat's face. :/ I know, it's been awhile only, but i miss him. :D He's phone no money oreadi, ._. Like siianx only. Ohkayy, gonna go sleep. Going up tomorrow. (: Well, byebye! (:

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi(:
Fatfat, wo ai ni! (:

Never ignore a person who loves you and cares for you, cause one day, you may realize tht you've lost the moon while counting the stars.

Friday, August 26, 2011 || 2:33 AM

Hello earthlings.

Mood now is, mixed. Well...... Nothing much. Today tried practice huatsoh. (: I piak till myself once, got abit of the fear oreadi. But well, it's common for tht to happen when learning. Even experienced people will piak till themselves. Suddenly damn cold again. ._. Hmm..

Fat is a liar. ): No sushi. ): Idk why today whole day damn moody. This few days, i'm like, don't quite like crowds. I mean, i prefer being alone or like with less people. I miss yesterday night.. I wonder why.. Even fat noticed tht, and yeaa, he keeps pei-ing me when i'm in the room alone. (: So nice you see. (: I WANT TO EAT SUSHI LIKE SERIOUSLY! ._.

Ohkayy, went to bedok eat today. Well, they ate. I didn't. Hmm, Don't really have the wei kou. :/ Thn walk around bedok there, as usual. Thn fat and me walk to NTUC, find sushi. but don't have. Whatever~ Thn walk around bedok again. Thn fatfat's daddy send me home. (: Reach home, watch tv awhile, fall asleep. Thn mummy they all come home, woke me up. ._. Wth.

Thn here i am~ Like a zombie. ._. Siianx, my back suddenly got the piercing pain i get from this afternoon's huatsoh practice. ): I never go see if got injured or what. Just ignored it, laughs. Suddenly, you sound so cold. I think i'm the reason for it. ._. Gahhh, i always never fail to spoil good things. Damn it, big time. ._.

Ohh na na, what's my name~ So siianx, fat seems busy. ._. Blahhblahhblahh.

Fatfat! I wana sue you for molesting my forehead while i was 'sleeping' last night! Boohoo~ Fatfat tomorrow going 'do things'. And tht's actually going find problem, again. This asshole just can't stop making people worry for him! How nice. ._. Seriously! But this can be helped. Very fast fatfat jiu go army lerhh. I think i'll go crazy when he go army. Miss him until go berserk. Funny? No it ain't funny. ._.

And i'm stressed now, fatfat going army, means me and jasmin, need to ownself learn huatsoh, so any important points, need learn from fatfat first. <: I wana be the most outstanding derhh girl with huatsoh. <: Teehee~ Tht's my aiming. ^^ Tua's ahniu qianqiu reaching soon. Hmm, lunar 九月十九 i think. It's like one month plus, butbut, fatfat is going army in like, 2 weeks time! ): So much to learn, so less time!

Sighs, fatfat went offline with telling. :/ Tonight is so different. He meiyou auto talk to me though. Perhaps i was too cold just now. :/ AHHHHHHHHHHH. Damn it for ruining everything. ._. Since fatfat is offline, i shall go offline soon too. :/

Fatfat, wo ai ni, ai si ni, ai si ni. ^^ 你要记得, 我会一直在你身边陪着你. (:

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:
Fatfat, my feelings for you never change. (:

Fatfat, ni zai shen qi marhh? Dui bu qi narhh. ):

Wednesday, August 24, 2011 || 7:01 PM

Hello earthlings.

Currently at fatfat's house. Damn siianx. ._. Hmm, haven been blogging for past few days, wasn't in the blogging mood anyway. Tomorrow pool session with youliang&co. (: It's been so long ayeeeeeeeee. Hmm. Siianx, whatever. ._.

Ohkayy, i'm so hungry, not sure still going white sand anot. ._. I was planning to buy sushi. ._. Nevermind, fat is busy outside. His parents are all home, i guess won't be going oreadi. Blahhblahh.

What i do wrong again? ._. Fat is giving attitude again ._. Gahhhh. I'll go crazy like tht. Headaches again. :/ Gonna stop blogging. Bye!

Monday, August 22, 2011 || 1:33 AM

你几时才会明白?

Those were the times. (:

Friday, August 19, 2011 || 2:52 AM

Hello earthlings! (:

Saw the above photos? They're my crazy girls. (: We're once close like madness. Laughs. (: And we named ourselves B.I.T.C.H.E.S. (: Sounds kindda crazy right? HAHAHAH! I know. (: Well, i just went to carol's blog and you know, kindda stalk her. HAHAHAAH! Thn i saw her uploading the B.I.T.C.H.E.S derhh photo. Grab it. (:

During sec 1, we used to be so close, we bitch around, stand as one. We quarrel, we fight, we even try to block out one and another. Laughs, thinking back. I find those times really funny and yes, it's precious. B.I.T.C.H.E.S is no longer there, well, we disband, and i started hanging out with my beautiful Lesbo instead. (:

She's a great friends, we share everything, try to be there for each other. (: We share alot of common interest! Tht's how we get along well. I really enjoy the times with her though. And i really miss her hugs, her hugs are like the best on earth i swear, damn nice. (: Hehehe, (: And slowly, we're in sec 3, we went to different classes. But everytime we see each other, we'll never frget our hugs. I'm glad we're still in contact now. But not very close though. :/ But i still love her, (: Forever and ever. (:

During sec 3, hahah, i went to class 3E4, same as carol, zhengwei, guoming and clare(: We started to stick together, went lunch together and everything. (: Things went smoothly. (: Had fun together and everything, we started to get really close. We sleep in class together, skip class together, hides inside toilet refuse to go for class. We did alot of stupid and silly things in sec3, H2O was slowly formed. (: And thn sec 4 was terrible, i drop down to NA, and was kindda 'seperated' from them. ): But well, dropping down to acad doesn't make anything different though. Everyday during recess, i will just go down and find them. Or if i'm released later, just go canteen, at our usual seats. Laughs, i still remember we had to snatch seats with the sec5. HAHAHAH!

H2O is still H2O, although some drifted apart. I still remember the times when we work for ice-cream. (: Like a fun only, those days are seriously fun. Working like mad, perspiring like mad. And i always pair up with HoYewLiang. (: He's my BEST dude! (: I swear he is, although we quarrel and fight like ummmmm, countless times. But he's the one tht knows me. (: I still remember the most i earn was 40+ bucks. HAHAHAH! The first time i work, carol and choonyong earned 50+! I was damn jealous! After we work, we'll usual ton or something. Hahah! There's once we nearly clear 20 ice creams! Or we cleared? Laughs, i don't remember oreadi. We're really carefree and well, we don't have to worry about money problems cause we're still young tht time, we don't spend money like madness, we don't buy gucci, we don't buy LV, we don't buy armani. (: What we all worried about is, FOOOOOOOOOD! HAHAHAH!

H2O is the craziest clique ever, and the best clique ever. There times where the clique almost fall apart, but well, i'm so glad everybody is still together. (: We all still have to work hard for our future, but we'll still stand together as one. (:

H2O ain't like any meaningless cliques, slack their butts out everyday. Like a lifeless only. We share good times and bad times, we're still brothers and sisters during bad times and good times. Not like those, only brothers and sisters if their of some use, worse clique ever.

Ohhhhh, don't forget about my primary school clique! (: Well, by now, we've oreadi know each other for 10years? Maybe 8? Hahaa! I totally miss all of them! We still contact, but not tht close anymore. ): I gotta keep all this ladies close by me! And this fatty, EamonnWee. He's the best dude. After we grad from pri school though. I remember how he used to gang up with some other guy and bully me. ): Like an asshole. Laughs, primary school is the only place where rumors aint rumors at all! It's like, once your friends know this thing, they'll tell you straight! Tht's how innocent we are. (: Those times are great, my best memories is winning medals for my colour house, laughs! I used to have the thought, muscle on my leg, please grow bigger. Now tht i think of it, i was VERYVERYVERY stupid. Now my leg is big. ._. Because i keep training myself. Funny right? I know. HAHAHAH! I met awesome dudes in track and field. And i miss all of them. (:

Looking back, i really see myself playing carefree, and hahaha, i was so young, the outside is like a stranger to me. I used to think tht the outside world is just like my beautiful little innocent world, but i was wrong. It's cruel and the total opp of innocent. :/ But with my crazy peeps around, well, bad times can oso be good times. (: I really do miss those young times though, if only one day, i'm able to go back to how those days used to be. Perfect aint it? (: Hahaha! Those were the times.. (:

Ohkayy. Stupid panda, never text me for HOURS oreadi. We kindda quarreled. Damn it lurhh. ): Sad die me, ): Stupid panda, i don't like you oreadi. >: Hmphs! Gonna ignore you. Bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. :b

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

Panda(:

Thursday, August 18, 2011 || 3:27 AM

Hello earthlings.

Well, nothing much to post. Today whole day, sleep, sleep, sleep, wait for stupid KohPeiYuan to text me, eat dinner, use lappy, talk on the phone with kj, carol, peiyuan. <: Havoc. Me love it! Damn tht stupid panda, make me worry whole day. ._. Thought something happen to him, when he was actually SLEEPING. HOW PIG IS HE?! ._. Damned. ._.

I can't say i've gotten over you totally. There's still some part there. I know hanging on won't do me any good anymore, i know this day would eventually come. I'm not gonna cry over it anymore. I'll walk away this time. You won't see me standing beside you anymore. We're just friends. I'll get over you, soon enough. Trust me. Ever since you walk away with her, you're prepared to see me walk away. I won't be there like last time, i won't be there if you ever broke up with her. I won't.

You're the one tht gives me up in the first place, don't blame me for anything. I tried my best oreadi, you just find someone new everytime. It seems like you just can't take one only, you need to have alot more. How did you spend 9 months with cas? The same like how you treated me? Girls aren't toy you should play with. Treat your girl like how you want your daughter to be treated.

Gonna go pei panda oreadi. Byebye! (:

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

Letting go was said easier thn done.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011 || 9:25 PM

I ruined everything.. :/ I know i have to let go someday, you have someone new. You're always looking at your phone. I get jealous. I know it's time i let go, you have to have your own life and spend it with someone special.. And tht someone wont ever be me. I just know it, i tried shifting feelings, but i realise it was very selfish and very unfair to the other person. Why must you take up such a big space in my life? :/

I know you have someone new now. It's time, time is up i guess? Ke shi wo zhen de bu gou yong gan, zhong wei ni tan teng wei ni xin ruan. Wo ke yi yong yuan siao zhe ban yan ni de pei jiao, zai ni bei hou zi ji jian au, ru guo ni bu xiang yao, xiang tui chu yao chen zao, wo mei you fei yao yi qi dao lao. Wo ke yi bu wen gan jue ji xu wei ai tao hao, leng yan de kan zhe ni de jiao ao, ruo you qing tai nan liao, xiang bie lian yao chen zao, jiu suan mi lian ni de yong bao, wang le jiu hao. Wo zai zhe yang ai qing kan jian de shi wo men de ruan ruo.

You know whats worse? Missing somebody tht is just right beside you. :/

Would you care if i suddenly went missing in your life?

|| 7:32 PM

Would you care if i suddenly went missing in your life? ):

It kindda hurts.

Mixed feelings. :/

Thursday, August 11, 2011 || 4:32 AM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 3:03am.

Drink, Drank, Drunk. (: Had fun few days ago, with py, nic, kj, darren, gerald, and few other people. (: At first go in tht time, me and gerald don't quite like the place. The only tht attracts me was the pool table. :D See them play pool, thn i played one round. PEIYUAN KEEP SNATCH FROM ME! ): Thn actually i was suppose to play first, thn DarrenQuek cut queue! ): Thn peiyuan wanted to cut queue, BUT I DON'T LET! <:

Thn kj come and ask me drink, ohkayy, i tried to puey, but FAILED! ): Sighs.. ): Thn drink, thn played pool. Hmm, thn jiu walk go sit down. Thn jiu start the drinking session. Laughs! (: Thn drink finish, thn nicholas and peiyuan ordered one tower. (: Thn wahhhhhh, nicholas keep refill my cup. >: When i first drink the first time, i got abit sehseh oreadi. Idk why you know! ): Hmm, thn continue drink until dk what time.

Thn very sehseh, nicholas and peiyuan send me home, until house downstairs. (: Hmm, reach home, jitao merlion. ._. Thn after tht changed clothes, jitao lie on the bed and sleep. :x Hehheh, the next day wake up, HANGOVER. ): Went out with mama, go everywhere~ I mean alot places. Laughs. (:

On the phone now with peiyuan and kj nows. I'm totally like IGNORED. ._. Idiots. ): Hmphs. Shall not blog anymore. BYEBYE!

Goodnights!
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

Spare a thought for my feelings please?

Sunday, August 7, 2011 || 12:25 AM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 12:12am.

Idk why, i'm feeling kindda down nows.. :/ Idk why, everytime, you tell me about how pretty tht girl was, how nice tht girl is, it just makes me feel useless.. Like i couldn't make you stay or get your attention somehow. Yes, i'm jealous.. I'm envy them.. Because they could get your attention without doing anything.. Everytime you compare me with some other girl, my heart just feels like breaking apart..

Guess you won't ever know tht.. And it seems like you're enjoying it somehow.. Sighs.. Am i really tht bad? So useless of me.. I can't even keep your heart safe.. You took it back everytime.. You had no intention of wearing the ring back i guess? It's ohkayy.. (: Guess you won't ever understand this feeling.. You may think tht I paranoid, thinks too much, over-protective.. But do you understand why i am like this? Perhaps, i wasn't in any position to be paranoid, wasn't in any position to thinks too much, wasn't in any position to be over protective of you..

Sighs.. Idk.. I guess, this habit can never be changed.. I'm just not secure.. Sighs.. Headaches again.. :/ Shall go rest nows.. I hope you'll text me when you get home. :/

Fatfat, i miss you. :/

Goodnights,
Withloves,
Sinyi.
Iloveyou.

Boy, nothing can describe more about how deep my love was for you.

Saturday, August 6, 2011 || 5:54 AM

Hello earthlings.

Time check, 5:47am.

Short post! Gonna go sleep! Tired maximum. I really enjoyed myself this few days with fatfat. (: I wish days like this will be more. :/ Sighs.. Although seeing you texting tht girl, was kindda.. :/ I shall get over with it, perhaps she's much more important thn me.. :/

You always seem to text her, when you're with me.. :/ You ans her calls, talk to her nicely.. :/ You don't auto text me anymore.. :/ Well, it's time i should stop being happy about it.. Cause everytimes i'm really happy, things just stop and return to me and you, strangers. :/ Sighs..

Fatfat, i just want you to know, i hope someday, you'll wake up, and really think.. Fat, mei you semo dong xi shi yong yuan derhh. Appreciate what you have nows. I don't mean me, i mean your family. :/ Well, you didn't know.. But there's people tht envy you for having such a good family.. You should appreciate them.. (: And lastly, fatfat, i love you.. Will you be back? ): I miss holding your hand so much.. :/ It's the same.. When i tried holding your hand, you gave me tht look.. I can never forget tht look on your face.. My heart dropped from the 100th floor to basement.. Do you know how it feels? It kindda sucks.. :/ I guess, everything is hopeless? But i'll wait, for you to turn back and hold me tight.. I prayed for tht day to happen.. :/

Goodnights.
Withloves,
Sinyi. (:

Boy, my love for you never ends.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011 || 4:03 AM

Hello earthlings. (:

Time check, 3:43am. (:

Ain't HayleyWilliams HOT?! (: Just had a great convo with fatfat<3. Teehee, (: I'm booked this friday! (: Fatfat jumping, yawns. I'm coming up with new ways to tie his hair. And thn just now we're discussing about the colours and everything. ^^ I'm gonna kill alot of brain cells thinking. ): But! It's worth it. (:

Lalala~ (: I'm so bored nows. Gonna go work oreadi, saving money for 12/13. Going drink! (: With nic they all, celebrating nic free from probation. (: Laughs, i'm gonna get wasted on tht day. I can't be drunk! Cause if drunk confirm will get scolded by mama one. :x Laughs! Hmmhmm, i'm so bored now~ Gonna go sleep soon i guess. Fatfat is asleep oreadi. >: Well, i had fun talking on the phone with him. ^^

Today whole day at home, wake up thn fall asleep again. @.@ Keep like tht. :x Teehee, sleep until idk what time, wake up, use comp. (: Thn something damn epic happen. :b HAHAHAH! Laugh until my stomach pain like maximum. :b

Shall stop posting oreadi. (:

Fatfat! I love you, (: Sweetsweet dreams, (: See you soon oh! (:

Goodnights.
Withloves,
Sinyi. (: