“You know my name, not my story.”

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I need time on my own, i'm shutting myself out of this world. Sorry to everyone, but i just need my own time in my own world. I'll be back, but not soon.

So late, suddenly jump up from dreams. I think I dreamt of something bad. ): gonna take the fu to put under my pillow already. Ogey! Moving on!

Heh. This few days, lucky I have them to be with me. Arbo I sure bored die and stuffs one. heh. Chu Yi went to edmund's house with Rachel~ Met her at tamp mrt first. Thn bus down together~ Hmm. Thn we were like gossiping. Hehehehe. Sorry, sometimes, it's just too juicy to not gossip. HAHAHAHA!

Yeapp. So, everybody will meet someone tht will accept who they are. I had my H2O babies, my darling, Xiuhui, and lastly, Rachel. (: Heh. It's hard to meet someone tht can be so....open heart. Heh. I don't really know how to describe. Oh! Anyway, I saw xiaxue. So I don't have like her or don't like. So ya. She walks like some young ahlian. Ogey! Back to topic!

Hmmm. Rarely there will be someone tht you can tell everything to. And yet, won't beat around the bushes. I'm lucky I know them. And I'm really lucky I know Rachel. It's like, I know her through my ex? They say when you lose something, you gain something else. Heh. Yes I did. (:

Ogey. Bloody poop. Imma go cook new now. BYEBYE!

Hey. How are you doing? You seem to be pretty good. You don't come to my blog anymore. Haha. People do really change heart huh?

Have been contacting Rachel. Just, idk why, hais. Everytime I see Rachel post those stuffs regarding to you, my heart just clenched and died.. And tht day at Edmund house. I swear I was about to break down right infront of everybody.. I really can't do this anymore..

I miss those times we spend together. ): Remember when you sang 那个男人 to me? It's stuck in my mind. Too much memories.. Too much feelings. Too much words left unsaid.. Idk really.. I tried to go Mia already. But I really can't. :/ Every single day tht passed without you, my heart died a lil. Can I call you mine again?

I force myself to face you and Rachel together. Cause Thts the only way I can kill those feelings, but it just gets stronger and stronger.. And I never ever wana do anything to spoil the both of you.. Yeaa. Love is selfish.. Everybody wants the good things, who would want the bad ones?

Boy, promise me. Tht you'll never ever forget anything about you and me. Promise you'll never forget me. Promise you'll remember us.. )': I miss your hugs.. Your kisses.. The way you get so protective over me.. Hais. I miss every single stuffs about you and me.. )':

This is the first photo we took together, remember? I still remember xh say we have the couple look. Hahaha. Well, hey boy. The days spend with you, I swear I'm happy. Even though I know you're not mine to keep. I can only treasure what's left.

I took the box and leave your house today.. I took all my belongings, and left.. Cause I know, no matter what, I'll never be the same in your heart.. It's been a long time since you last pat me to sleep. What pains me the most is, I know you're not mine to hold on to anymore. And when I heard you call me, 'bi!', my heart clenched. I'm both happy and sad.. Happy tht I finally heard tht from you, sad is, I know it's gonna be the last time I hear it.. When I heard you call me 'baobao' this morning.. I swear I have never been so happy before.

Life is indeed a joke. My life is a joke. I've never regret knowing you. Cause if I didn't know you, idk where I'll end up. If I never fall for you, I would've never know, love is worth risking anything. If you didn't woo me, I wouldn't have know, love can be sweet and bitter. But, the only thing tht matter is, being together. I didn't think tht I'll be here, with a hole in my heart. Cause I never have needed anyone so badly.. I was never a girl tht need a guy. Until I met you, my world changes.

Both good and bad changes.. Bad is, I've been ditching friends for your sake. And in my world, there's only you. And good point is, I felt love, I felt it. I know what it feels to love someone. I know what it feels to be love. I've been through so much with you tht I didn't with the other guys. I've never give in to anyone, I'm a totally diff girl.

Fat chubby cheeks. I love your dimples. I love your smiles. I love your eyes, so mesmerizing. I love your kisses. I love you hugs, so warm and safe. I love your touch, burning on my skin. I love your care. I love your concern. I love your naggy-ness. I love the way you make me do something for my good. I love the way you eat, like a 3yo kid. I love the way you smell. I love your protective-ness. I love how you're protective over me. I love how you cover my head when we walk under the rain. I love how you always treat me like a lil girl. I love your fishball. I love how you always wanted to pinch my fishball. I love your body. I love your craziness. I love how you have in to me. I love how you never wana lose me. I love how you're afraid tht I will get taken away. I love how you get all manly and firm with me. I love your 'iloveyou'. I love your 'imissyou'. I love your greetings. I love your nicknames. I love the nicknames you gave me. I love it when you hold me. I love it when you carry me in your arms, I feel so safe and wanted. I love it when you love me. I love how we always take silly pictures. I love how you'll bring me along to your outings. I love how you'll pat me to sleep. I love how you'll make me sleep on your shoulders cause i like it. I love how you let me lean on your back and sleep. I love how you'll hold me when you sleep. I love your hugs-from-the-back. I love our goodnight kisses. I love your shut-me-up-kisses. I love the way you hold me when I cry. I love how you won't let anyone touch me. I love how you'll always make me eat my medicine. I love how you'll say you go take something thn end up with medicine and warm water, and when I ask, you say tht me eating medicine is important. I love how paranoid you get when things get back. I love our quarrels.. I love your everything boy.. Everything.. And lastly, I love you..



Remember this photo? It was done after our first year. You're in tekong for 14 days on our first anniversary, and i had to spend it alone. But i was so glad I'm able to meet you right after you came back and you hugged me tightly and say, 'baby! I miss you so much while I'm in tekong! Do you miss me? Have you been a good girl? And, Happy 1st Anniversary baobao!' I hugged you back tightly, tears flow down.. And you wipe them away.. Calling me a silly girl. But it was because I missed you too much. Everyday was a torture to me.. I couldn't contact you, could only countdown and wait for the day you come back.. And tht day came, I'm more excited thn anyone else! Even more ganjiong thn yoyo the ganjiong dog. I went to your house very early, and help you pack your room nicely, neatly and wait for you to come back.. And when you're back, I have the urge to run over to you and just hug you and never let you go! But, I waited till you talked to your parents finish and when you came in the room. Finally, the hug I've been waiting for 14days..

Boy, I miss you..

There's no turning back.. Im backing out.. How can I possibly stay? Hais. I admit I still can't get over you. But boy, I'm really tired of your lies. I hate this. What's this? Sharing? No, I ain't sharing. And I know if anything happens, I know you'll side her and not me.. I can already guessed the endings. So I rather leave myself thn stay there and watch you love someone else..

Boy, Chan KhidThung Khun..

You still calls her baby, baobei, bi and stuffs liddat.. it's so different from me.. Withdrawal is a better choice for me. I wanted to stay and carry on fighting. But everyday, knowing tht you lied through your teeths, kills me.. Why can't you treat me the way you treat her?

Boy, Jet'aime

Where's the boy tht I once knew? Where's the boy tht hugs me when I cry? Where's the boy tht protects me? Where's the boy tht wants and needs me? Where's the boy tht once love me? )': Where's the boy tht clings to me only? Where's the boy tht will never hurt me? )': Where's the boy tht cries along with me when we talks about our problems?

Boy, wo Xiang Ni.. )':

Owyeong baobao, owyeong laogong&laopo, chen baobao, baobao, bibi, beibei, baobei, baby.. This are all the nicknames we once had.. Remember the times? When you suddenly call me owyeong baobao? I ask why you call me owyeong baobao and you told me this, 'someday, sooner or later, you're gonna follow my surname already owyeong baobao'.. I'm crying while writing all this.. Remember the times when you hold on to me and protects me when everyone else is against me? )':

Boy, Te Quiero.

I wish I had someway, to make you love me like how I love you.. I miss being like a lil girl in your arms boy.. I miss being love by you.. The times when you gave in to me, treat me like a princess, pamper me, love me, let me hit, let me scold, let me do whatever I want.. Phuket trip.. You were my prince back thn, and I was your princess.

Well, hello.

LOLOL. Now at LAN with broby~ He's working and i'm using comp for free. HAHAHA! My eyes are closing. Lucky he's closing in another hr time. HAHA! Just now jason came. And he left. Rich boy ahhs. Hahah! Have been playing comp, thn played L4D2 just now, broby sit beside and watched. HAHAH! I swear my reaction confirm damn funny. Before playing, he say, don't play till scream till the whole shop can listen. HAHAHAHAHA! Thn played, i scream dk how many times and i was cursing along with it. Unbelievable, i know. But! This is how i bloody play. HAH!

Just now when playing viwawa. I scolded people online because of their bloody laggy network. Broby say, 'i knew you're gonna do it. *laughing*' Thn played and played. Now idk what to do again. OMFG. I swear they damn noisy. SERIOUSLY. ._. Blackshot big fuck mehh? Tskk.

Ogey la! Shall go off nows. hehe. Byebye!

Withloves,
Sinyi, <3

Well, summarize today. Work was smooth. Just now ask you where you are, you tell me at Rachel house, an you're okay with her already. As shock as I can be. Tears filled my eyes. Thn later, you tell me you're joking with the you and her okay already part. Idk what to believe.. I ask if you're together with her, you tell me tht you're not. And ask me, cannot joke about it? Cause I say you told me tht you and her okay..

It kills me. You said tht you and her are over. And ask me to give you some time.. And you say is not for you to win her back.. I trusted you.. But I know you're still in contact with her. Everytime I say you still love her, you denied. Idk why. And, you're denying everything to her. And you even said I'm lying? C'mon.

Who's the one tht says iloveyou first? Who's the one tht hold on? Who's the one tht being sweet? You're the one tht keeps on saying 'iloveyou' to me when you both are together. So now I am in the fault for falling a lil too deep? I can forget, but you choose to come and make me remember again. Idk why you did tht for. Even now.. Now you're giving me cold treatment again.. I hate this hot and cold attitude you're giving me. If you're gonna leave, just leave once and for all. Don't hang me by the thread.

You said you went up her house to find her mum. I don't understand how you always use their mum to cover up. Olivia you oso liddat say. Can tell me you're otp with her mum for hrs. Now you tell me you go up find her mum and have dinner with her whole family? It's not Idw believe you, it's UNBELIEVABLE. Sighs. I really dk le la. Curse this.. I dare you to say tht you didn't say those things to me. I dare you to deny everything again.