“You know my name, not my story.”

July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 May 2012 June 2012 August 2012 October 2012 September 2013

I'm unhappy, really. Not unhappy, just upset. Why would things turn out this way? Shall stop thinking about all this stuffs. It won't do any good. Really. I want to have tht ability to ignore you back again. Cause I really need it. I needa keep my promises this time. I cant afford to lose anyone anymore.

Idk what to do. I don't wana give up tht easily.. But I can only give up. I cant do anything else. When you hug me and whisper to me, 'dont be sad, I love you.. Don't cry silly', the more I wana cry. I hesitate for a moment, wondering if I should reply.

You're not mine.. Remember last night? When you wana hold my hand, I say, "once you hold, you can never let go". And I remember you say, "must let go! Hold till go home, thn let go, sleep thn wake up hold again." I swear you're so sweet.

With you, there's nothing I wouldn't try. Those food tht I don't eat, with you, I eat 'em. Those stuffs tht I've never do before, with you, I did 'em. Those words tht I've never say before, with you, I've said it all. You're my pillar of strength. My pillar of life.. My everything.

Teach me how to carry on. I'm feeling this guilt. Boy, teach me..

Truth is, no one is able to make me forget you. Okay, I swear my life is a joke. Purely a joke. I once thought warren's able to make me forget owyeong. But impossible. The whole night I'm drinking last night, my whole head is you. Seriously.. C'mon man, what am I suppose to do?